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mom said that we might be flying to japan and taiwan for holidays this year. and so since the next term break is like only 3 weeks, most probably i will be away for christmas. had an indescribable feeling. didnt want to be away for that occasion. somehow christmas holds a special meaning to mi. and ive no idea why too.
actually had a talk with fiona last night. we were discussing about relationships and marriages. i thought that marriage should be ever so wonderful when i was young. the effect of fairytales on small lil naive kids who have never seen the cruelty of harsh reality. then again, that was when i was young. the idea of getting married scares mi now. how would you ever know if he is the one? it is not as if there is a definition for us to judge and follow accordingly to find out if he is the right guy. it is not as if there would be any tell-tale signs. what if he gets into an extramarital affair? i seem very certain about the answer and the decision i would make there and then. but what if we have kids? these are the reasons why i changed my mind about wanting to get married at the age of 24. miracles? yes, i do believe that it happens, but believing that it will happen to mi is another thing. i dont think i have done enough good deeds to deserve even one in my life. have i?
thinking about these stuffs when im just 18. duh.
i came across a fallen tree
i felt the branches of it looking at mi
is this the place we used to love
is this the place that ive been dreaming of.
